Kimi no Keki

Definitely feeling better now than I did the past two days. I suffered from tonsillitis and allergic rhinitis (pinaarteng "sipon" according to Katty) followed by fever. I was so sapped I could hardly stand, add to that that I had a pounding headache. I wasn't allowed to take any full bath the entire time so you could just imagine how grimy I felt, with a runny nose and all. ("And all"?)

At least I had legitimate excuse to pig around, eating and sleeping then eating and sleeping again. The best part was the midnight snack. A while ago I had ube cake from A la Creme (Yummy!), instant noodles, tofu with vegetables, and beef broth. The variety of flavors inside the mouth was truly delightful! ("Truly delightful"?) When gluttony strikes, I, ignorant of the concept of delayed gratification, am not one to resist. Woink woink. Now I just have to worry about diarrhea. And the probability of not ever waking up after tonight's this morning's sleep.

Live A.I.D.S; Alumnight

February 3, 2007

2PM. Watched UP Samaskom Live A.I.D.S. (LA) Monologues. Out of the four LA I've watched since I was a UP freshie, I should say this is the second best, next to LA 20 if not at par with it. Ate Glow, Tuesday Vargas, and R.S. Francisco were some of the performers. The show was worth the one hundred, fifty pesos.

Thanks, Jazelli, for accompanying me! :D

7PM. Attended the CE Week Alumnight at Kowloon House, West Avenue. I lost count of the fried lumpia I was shoving down my throat. And I got to take home two plastic bags of leftover food. Whee!

It's nice to see Chudy and Krissopper again. :D
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I want to join them to Manaoag. But I can't. :(

She Can't Fight the Moonlight

I can't blame her. Even I can't fight it. I realized big brown eyes can hypnotize... I will just have to try very, very hard to contain the green-eyed monstrosity. The devil inside, devil deep inside me...

They don't know I burn!
They don't know I burn!
They don't know I burn burn burn!

Because Lately You've Been Getting on My Nerves

I shall give you the cold, silent treatment. And the occasional, sarcastic smile depending on my mood. *Someone raises a question, "E di ba yun na yung normal mo?" I give him the stare. Worthless creature dies petrified.*

I assume you feel the same way towards me. Quits na lang tayo. *Smiles*

Ivan's Law: Everything ends with that two-letter acronym.

Can't Let This Pass Unblogged

I was somewhere dark minding not my own business. Lo and behold, someone's bare buttcheeks in sight! It wasn't just someone, and definitely they weren't just someone's buttcheeks. Haha.

Pretence to a Parenthood

"She's fighting the feeling, and she's always with him? That's pushing it."

Back to My Original Distraction

I wanted out so out I did go.

A Distraction to My Distraction

Let the game begin. I guess it wouldn't hurt. :D
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I'm joining the bandwagon. Nina, you won back my favor.

Someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
Someday, someday...

Now You Complain

That's what you get for not being a people person. You may bitch all you want, whine all you want, break down all you want; but you will succeed only in making a complete jerk out of yourself. Your peace you shall forever hold, and only you will ever witness yourself shatter into pieces.

Writhe in pain! Die in envy! You deserve it, asshole!

The winner takes it all...

(In)Ces't Amour

It gave off a stench too strong it didn't escape my nose even in dreams. What it was I was able to recognize only after listening uninvited to conversations. (What's new?)

What good did confirming my suspicion do me? Nothing. In fact, it made things worse. It made me worse. It stirred up the monster in me, the green-eyed kind. I just refuse to unleash it because doing so would leave rationality (or what's left of it) prey to such abomination.
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I hate it when people quote lines from songs. (Ang cheesy kase eh.) And here I am about to do the same. What else can I do, the situation calls for it. I'm drowning in liquefied cheese all over again. *Barfs*

Saturday I saw you holding hands with someone new. Somehow I kept my composure just like everything was cool. But inside I kept repeating, "Don’t' you let them see you cry." So I casually turned my head as the tears rolled down my eyes...

Amoy-bangkay

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me... Wish ko la-ha-hang.

Yesterday Kat and I went for another round of walk-in marketing for the CE Week. Lubert drove for us and Jac tagged along.

We finished at about 6PM and Lubert dropped us at the Block. Kat had to drag and limp her way up the third floor because the sole of her shoe got detached during the walk-in. So she bought herself a new pair of sandals and after that guess what. Another round of walk-in! I have to commend Kat for her diligence though. (The pressure is killing her. Haha.)

For dinner we Kat decided we three eat at Encore. The food was rip-off and the facility and the service, crappy. The attendants didn't knock and one would just barge in, in the middle of your belting your voice. Nonetheless, we had a fun time. I think.

Earlier Ben and Zel invited us to watch the last show of the World Pyro. However, we had to meet them up at the Mall of Asia (No, thank you.) Too bad, I really wanted to come since it's the Philippines' turn to showcase a fireworks display (Virge said it's the best he'd seen last year.) Other than that, I had no place to stay since Zel brought her keys with her (something I'd later thank Zel for doing).

After parting with Kat, off Jac and I went to Starbucks, Katipunan to kill time. We were with Melvin and Jerome. Jac finally got her planner and Jerome, his nth one (thanks partly to me). Lalala lalala lalalala oh, oh, oh...

I was supposed go to CE's PAGASA at the Culiat GK site this morning (wherever that is) then go home in Pampanga, but what do you know, I overslept again. Twenty whole hours, baby!

First class tomorrow: Econ 190.1 where the professor fancies donning low-neckline shirts and skinny jeans. Have I mentioned my professor is male? And is graying? As in balding and as-old-as-your-lolo old. Eek!

Because Weaving Together Strips of Neon Green Construction Paper Is Way Cheaper Than Buying Zoloft

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To the left, to the left, in the closet, that's my boy (in the bang-bang pose with a click of the tongue).
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I don't want to talk about you anymore. I don't want to hear people talking about you anymore. "Even when I'm eavesdropping." Period.

All that's left to do is to shake you off (a la Mariah Carey) my mind. It's easy. As easy as grabbing my eyeballs off their sockets. If only I could shut off my brain when even a single neuron comes near processing a thought of you or anything connected to/asscoiated with you, I would. Comatose over depression, baby!
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Today spells of irritation. Everything/one's irritatingly irritating and everything/one's irritatingly irritated. Even my face didn't escape from all the irritation. My rashes are as stubborn as I am. Shit.
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I didn't go home to Pampanga tonight. That's how much I adore Katty with all my black, black, punctured heart.

Katty: Anong amoy yan?
Ivan: Yan ang amoy ng pagkaasar ko sayo.

Ang Kati-kati!

I'm really hating the cold right now. First, it's the building up of mucus in my lungs. Every morning I wake up it's as if I'm on the verge of an asthma episode, laborious breathing and all. Now, my cheeks are starting to itch again. The cold seems to trigger my rashes. Ugh. It's so irritating!
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It's the first day of the CE Tambay Weeks today. I've been so eager to see *bleep* again but to no avail. Tear. I wish he doesn't read what Zel wrote on the freedom wall in order to tease me, especially whatever I scribbled back in response. If he does, I wish he doesn't have enough wit to decipher them (mucho bobito, baby).

I also just finished today editing the CE Week Grand Pakain marketing proposal for walk-ins. Tonight Kat, Levs, and I traveled the stretch of Katipunan, stopping by each fastfood/restaurant. We started from Ken Afford, and by the time we reached Jollibee, Kat and Levs were already complaining of tiredness so we decided to just continue tomorrow. We handed out a total of eighteen proposal copies. Whew. *Crosses fingers*
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I want to watch Dreamgirls na (na?)! The soundtrack is so LSS-y. I have an idea na (na?) of what song to play during the CE Tribute thingy. Wenk.

I Love Triclosan

I won again.
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Triclosan overexposure. The furthest I've gone abusing a substance.
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Guess where I was last, last night. Seated on seashore boulders, facing the dark vastness that's Manila Bay. The setting was melodramartic actually. I guess what with the current that produced wispy sounds as it caressed the rocks, the surface that mirrored the lighthouse, um, light (very moonriver-y), and the infinity that whelmed any trace of hope left (in my grasp, I'll hold with both hands... wenk) in one's heart. Add to that how I was situated sirena-esquely on top of the large stones. Which pretty much ruined the picture. Haha.

I, together with Jac, Lubert, Virge, and Zel, watched the first night of the second World Pyro Olympics at the Esplanade. It was spectacular (how desciptive). The hell of getting there (and out of there) was worth it. I think.
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Honestly, I know it's silly of me to want you so badly but keep it concealed. See my inferiority complex kicks in, and the words escape me as I'm paralyzed. I'm so helpless when I look into your eyes...

The paradoxic distance, as if it doesn't emaciate my heart enough, out of the blue, you announce you have a bleeping *bleep*. And you plan to rub that fact on my freaking fugly face by bringing *bleep* here. Feelingero (ako)!

How bittersweet.

Habang Hinihintay Dumating si Zelina D. De Vera

Classes resumed yesterday, but I'll resume attending them tomorrow. Haha. I just came straight from Pampanga because I packed my things only today. Hello, Procrastination 2007. Have I known that Zel invited *bleep* to sleep over I wouldn't have overslept (sleep over, overslept, haha, wenk) and would have hurled my lazy ass to the bus station yesterday.

I cast the blame on depression; it makes one either be insomniac or oversleep. Or both, as it does in my case. And it makes my eyebags look worse which make me look older my age and ugly(er). How can I get rid of them; help! Another thing, I've been losing appetite so my Twigdom Conquest over the break didn't fare successfully. To prove, as I was dressing up before leaving today, I didn't exert any effort zipping my pants, and I needed to use belt to keep them from falling. So disappointing.

Anyway, I planned not to attend class today because I still look dugyot(er). My hair's a messy bush up there. I'm having it cut later, although I think I have to ditch the new color. And the new hairstyle. It seems that everyone else has the same idea of repackaging one's coif. I tend to be not like everybody. Sorry (I'm addressing this to myself.) Besides, I think won't be able to handle such drastic (it is for me) change.

So why am I blabbing so much? I'm just killing time while I wait for Zel. Oops, there goes my prepaid hour. Or not. I still have another hour. Whee! This Internet shop extended their Pamaskong Handog where members (like myself) pay only P10.00 per hour instead of the usual P20.00. Maybe the new competition's fifteen-peso offer is luring away the patrons. Which I half-wish really happens.

Most of the customers here are barbarians (gamers). Everytime a surfer (like myself) loads a video on YouTube or downloads files via BitTorrent or other peer-to-peer chova, the surfer's terminal hogs the whole shop's connection bandwidth, and the games played hang up. When that happens, expect the barbarians to go wild. YouTubers and download freaks end up being persecuted and oppressed.

There's an unwritten rule here that downloads are prohibited during peaks hours of gaming. Once I was caught breaking that rule and the custodian asked me to stop. And I did because he asked nicely and partly because he's cute. Kind of. Well, not really. Haha. Shet, I hope Zel doesn't read this.
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Update: I had a minty hair spa treatment at F Salon. The haircut came free with it, but it ended looking like a gruesome massacre so I headed straight to Bench Fix Salon right after to have another haircut. Wenk.

Kimkim

For every word of regret, of hatred I hold in,
A tear forces its way to flow from the eye.

In darkness I shroud the truth.
In silence I embrace solace.

For one moment the surge I unbound,
That of the sea welling from within.

In slumber I search for nothing.
In nothingness I stop feeling.

First Post for 2007

Hello, readers. Happy New Year! Do I see eyebrows raised? Lower them or I'll harpoon those judgmental eyes of yours. Okay, ignore my previous post and let me explain.

I wasn't really big on making resolutions for 2007, since God knows they will remain only as resolutions never acted upon. However, during the cold, lonely break, I've reflected that throughout the past years I've grown more and more obnoxious, despicable, reproachful, etc. I definitely have hurt people along the way, but (No, it's not guilt talking here; mind you, I'm a sociopath) ultimately, it's only I that I've been hurting. Whatever.

My point here is I've let negativity define me as a person. For a change, I'm putting it aside and try being, um, pleasant. No more frowns, no more ice-cold stares, no more nasty (yet witty) comments, and no more satanic thoughts (I said I'll try.) Let the Year of the Pig reek of pleasantness until we vomit sugar and spice and every thing nice.
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In no time the semester will end and people will go. Well, that's life; we've got to keep on moving. For the remaining months, days, and minutes before the conclusion, I only wish for each and everyone to enjoy one another's company, to savor every moment spent together, and to prize the friendships that our stay in the University have created. (Oo, may ganyon.) Yes, we certainly will may forget about them some time in the future, nonetheless let's live the present to the fullest. Whatever.
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While having fun organizing my own Google homepage, I came across something that rang a bell. Tingnan mo nga naman. Fate, are you mocking me?

Daily Horoscope for Sagittarius
Tuesday, January 2, 2007

You are being pulled into your own world of feelings and it may be difficult to fit into the standard box of traditional relationships now. Don't be too hard on yourself, for you have something very special to offer and anyone close to you should already know this about you. If they can accept you for who you are, it will all work out. But first, you must completely accept yourself.

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