SOS

I think I need help from the doctor. Yes, I am dying. :(

S-O-S please someone help me
It's not healthy for me to be this...

I just downloaded the complete "This Is Love" by Utada Hikaru. As always, I love it! Jazel, super thanks for the link. :)

Shallow

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

What the hell am I doing in BA? Preparing to join the workforce to pursue the crappy, selfish lifestyle of the time-efficient and high-aiming yuppie bs.

And oh, this will be the first and the last Blogthing I will ever post here.

Brown or Black?

Tongues of flame flickered. They consumed every ounce of oxygen the breeze carried while it blew through the dusty windows. The temperature rose to a certain degree I just felt the back of my shirt damp from the sweat it absorbed. Something wanted to take over me. I had to get out.

It was much cooler outside, but all I could see were abstractions. I had to take careful, little steps so as not to trip on something which was out of sight. In a matter of seconds the the pupils of my eyes dilated to adapt to the dark surroundings. Shapes began to form.

The moon, half as it was, radiated a weak glow just bright enough to cast my shadow against the white, towering wall I faced. The sky was purple and starless, and ocassionally, clouds smothered the moon, blocking the weak light that painted my silhouette.

I grew oblivious to the thing, which I wanted to run away from inside the house, until the mosquitoes concurred to make a feast out of my limbs. Right then and there the urge to scream, no, shriek like a banshee was too irresistible to satisfy.

FVCK THE LOCAL ELECTRIC COMPANY! FVCK! FVCK! FVCK!

But of course I didn't. It would have been scandalous and embarassing. So I just mumbled every cuss word I knew as I walked back inside the house.

Fvcking brownout.

Is Your Weight Increasing Your Health Risks?

An interactive tool from Yahoo! Health says,

High risk. Your risk of premature death and disability is greater than normal due to your weight. See your health professional for advice on how to reduce your risk of disease.

At least, I don't look like a penguin. Yeah, because I look like a freaking lizard!

Playlist

Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down)

I first heard this song from the opening credits of Kill Bill Volume I. It grew on me only after repeatedly listening to it on my friend's cell phone. The simple lyrics, the haunting music, and the equally haunting voice of Nancy Sinatra (which reminds me of Karen Carpenter's) narrate a tragic love story.

Circles

This is probably my most favorite in The Emancipation of Mimi record. Basically, it has the same story as "Breakdown". This time though, Mariah goes for an organic sound and does away with her unintelligible whispers.

Is She the Reason

This track is from Destiny Fulfilled. The trumpets and the bass drum create the Motown-y acoustics. This somehow explains the nostalgic feeling that overwhelms me whenever I listen to the song. The only other song able of the same effect on me is "Taiyo ga Mata Kagayaku Toki", the fourth ending theme of the anime "Yu Yu Hakusho".

Feel the Same Way I Do

It is one of the two previously unreleased tracks from Destiny’s Child's final and greatest-hits album #1's. It's amazing how Beyonce's songwriting has matured through time. Now they can sing about sex (of course, tastefully) and the myriad of emotional complexities and complications that come along with it.

Squatting

I have been. Since last week. With Dia. At Jay and Dona's. (Super thanks to you two! :D)

Choppy sentences. I. Am. Sooo. Booored. And lazy. The temperature. Blame it. It's escalating.

I'm at Prince David. Will be sleeping here. Tomorrow. At Jay and Dona's. Again. With Dia. Again.

A favor. Pick me up. And throw me. In the garbage can.

Diversion. Click images. For more. Um. Images.

Beyonce. Cut her hair. Short. Sad.

Christina. Shot her new video. Of her latest single. "Ain't No Other Man". From her upcoming album. Back to Basics (read here). Can't wait!

Sun, Sea, and Sand (and Smurf and Skirt)

Do you dread skin cancer? Or despise unsightly tanlines?

Hear what the Manolo himself has to say about the Smurf and the skirt. "Ayyyyyyy!"

Prick

It was just an average flower. One among the many in the foliage, common and plain looking, it never stood out. I can't quite recall how and when I started staring at this sole blossom.

Everyday I would look forward to the afternoon when I would stroll down the bush were it sprouted. I would gaze at it, tilting my head strenuously in impossible angles to examine every petal and leaf. It didn't give off a fancy fragrance, fortunately, since I was allergic.

The time came when I finally decided to pick it. Using the pair of pinking shears from the kitchen, I cut it from the bush, leaving a thorny stem of fair length. With the tip of my fingers, I held it by the stem. Gently and carefully avoiding the thorns, I twirled it, as it resembled a miniature ballerina dancing on top of a music box...

The scars on my right palm are disappearing, gradually. The bloodstain on the lace of my right sneaker has dried to a dull shade of brown. I still wish to pick up the flower by the bush where it lies. But every time I come near it, the sight of the same thorns, albeit thicker and intimidating, brings me back to my senses.

It will never ever be mine. From the very beginning, I have been perfectly aware of that. After all, it's Lisa's flower.

A Heart-warming Fable

Here's another one.

The Really Ugly Duckling
by Jon Sciezka from The Sticky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales

Once upon a time there was a mother duck and a father duck who had seven baby ducklings. Six of them were regular-looking ducklings. The seventh was a really ugly duckling. Everyone used to say, "What a nice-looking bunch of ducklings-- all except that one. Boy, He's really ugly." The really ugly duckling heard these people, but he didn't care. He knew that one day he would probably grow up to be a swan and be bigger and look better than anything in the pond.

Well, as it turned out, he was just a really ugly duckling. And he grew up to be just a really ugly duck. The End.

Are You Joking My Leg?

Something I dug up from my baul, from my English 1 class kit. Sigh. It always gives me a hard laugh. :)

NoYpiTZ sayings mga rePapipz
from Ed Geronia

"The more the manyer."
"It's a no-win-win situation."
"Burn the bridge when you get there."
"Anulled and void."
"Mute and academic."
"C'mon let's join us!"
"If worse comes to shove."
"Are you joking my leg?"
"It's not my problem anymore, it's your problem anymore."
Melanie Marquez ang dating...
"What are friends are for?"
"You can never can tell."
"Well well well. Look do we have here!"
"Let's give them a big hand of applause."
"Been there, been that."
"Forget it about it."
"Give him the benefit of the daw."
"It's a blessing in the sky."
"Right there and right then."
"Where'd you came from?"
"Take things first at a time."
"You're barking at the wrong dog."
"You want to have your cake and bake it too."
"First and for all."
"Now and there."
"I'm only human nature."
"The sky's the langit."
"That's what I'm talking about it."
"One of these days is not like the other."
"So far, so good, so far."
"Time is of the elements."
"In the wink of an eye."
"The feeling is actual."
"For all intense and purposes."
"I ran into some errands."
"Hi. I'm (your name), what's yours?"
"What is the world is coming to?"
"What is the next that is?"
"Get the most of both worlds."
"Bahala na sila sa mga batman nila."
"Whatever you say so."
"Base-to-base casis."
"My answers have been prayered."
"Please me alone!"
"It's as brand as new."
"So... what's a beautiful girl like you?..."
"I can't take it anymore of this!"
"Are you sure ka na ba?"
"Can't you just cut me some slacks?"

Catching Up

Just came from Shane's sister Kay's birthday dinner party. Gian, Lyn, and Sam were also there. They were my friends since high school and the last time we were together was on the Christmas vacation of 2004. The rest of the gang, as usual, didn't show up. Excuses, excuses, and more excuses.

The party started at 7Pm but I came around 8:30PM. They all finished eating then. Gian already wanted to go home. He was already tired and sleepy since he got there around 6PM straight from his internship in Makati. He, Lyn, and Sam let me finish my first cheesecake slice before they all went ahead. If it weren't for Gian's bitching the two of them stayed behind.

At first, I rather hesitated to attend the party because I already would have been late. But aside from not seeing Shane and the rest for so long, I missed and craved for the cheesecake Shane's mom regularly bakes. It was Mocha cheesecake this time, and if there was something on Earth better than sex, this was it. I swear! If only I could defy the Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility.

So Shane and I chatted the rest of the time, catching up on each other's lives. She said her father asks her to take extra accounting or finance units after she finishes her BM degree in DLSU. Apparently, her father wants her to take the CPA or CFA boards. "Are you sure? If it doesn't make you happy, don't, even if it means going against your father's will. Trust me." BI? Haha. Am I not right?

I also told her to secure a job right away after she graduates, so that she would have an excuse just in case her father will insist. Just about the same advice, I gave Jazel. Haha.

As for me, I still don't know. I still have no definite plans. Beyond graduation, the future is a hazy picture. Taking (and passing) the UP LAE crosses my mind now and then. Just because I became curious after Jazel and Chris passed and I wonder if I will, too. Just because I messed things up and my grades suck and I want to start anew. Just because I want to prove my intelligence.

Yes, I have insecurities. Other people's self-esteem depends on their appearances, on their wealth, on their morality, or whatever. Mine depends on my intelligence. Image may not be everything, but I suppose it not just is nothing as well.

Eek. I think I've shared more than I should have. Probably, one day I will regret posting this. Oh well, this is my blog. (So what?)

Fag-Hag Finale

Take the last bow, Fags and Hags.

Enter stage, Desperate Housewives.

Sunken Stars

The heat of summer sunshine just makes me want to sing In the heat of summer sunshine I miss you like nobody else... I guess it makes sense. I'm missing a lot of people who either most of which just graduated or aren't taking summer classes. ** sucks. :(

Anyway, 11AM I was just dismissed from my Soc Sci 2 class. As I was walking down the AS steps, a guy in sporty attire with a top in pastel blue, from across the street caught my eye. It was Gabby Eiganmann (sp?). "So what? It's just him. Act nonchalantly."

So, I crossed the street then walked past him. My pace was normal. He was following about 3 meters behind me. By the beads of sweat covering his forehead and temples, I could tell he was too tired to run.

I was in front of Psych when this tall, brawny guy, also in sporty attire, appeared from my left side. His bandana and dark shades did not stop me from recognizing him. Ding dong. Dingdong Dantes.

I acted coolly but deep inside I wanted to scream like a high school girl. Haha. From there Dingdong called Gabby and they continued jogging, leaving me behind.

So there. What's with star sightings and me lately? It's in my stars, perhaps. Haha.

Met up Jazel at Jollibee, Katips. We ate gossip for dinner. We thrive on it.

Summer Classes

Summer's fine so far. Nostalgic if I may say so. It's Schoolyear 2003-2004 all over again for me. Before CBA and definitely before CE.

A 7AM class. PE 2. A GE subject. GE friends. Kate. Long walks. Walking alone. Walking around, beside, or on the Sunken. Eating lunch in Narra. Sleeping before my 1PM class. The Main Lib. Borrowing books from the Filipiniana.

Sigh.

Anyway, last Tuesday Kate and I went to Gateway. You say Rent, I say D' Lucky Ones. Yes, we watched D' Lucky Ones in Gateway. Don't ask.

I wanted to borrow The Twisted Menace: Book Four from the Filipiniana but until now, the only copy they have is not returned yet. Ugh. I've been trying to get my hands on that book since my freshie year. I ended up with The Pinoy Elections: a Guide to the Dismayado and finished it in less than an hour.

Finally I'm starting (continuing, if you would count my attempt in high school) my self-study of Japanese. I borrowed A Guide to Learning Hiragana and Katakana from the Asian Center Library.

Japanese. Utada Hikaru is Japanese. She is coming up with her fourth Japanese album. Can't wait for that!


(album art)

Album
ULTRA BLUE

Released
2006.06.14

Tracklist
01. This Is Love
02. Keep Tryin'
03. BLUE
04. Nichiyou no Asa (日曜の朝)
05. Making Love
06. Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro (誰かの願いが叶うころ)
07. COLORS
08. One Night Magic feat. Yamada Masashi
09. Kaiji (海路)
10. WINGS
11. Be My Last
12. Eclipse (Interlude)
13. Passion

UPCE on Wiki

I was browsing the English Wikipedia last night, searching for atricles that would pop in my head. I read the University of the Philippines article. From the internal link there I jumped to UP Diliman. To my delight (I squeaked out of excitement), UPCE was one among the listed (less than twenty) in the Organizations, Fraternities, Sororities portion.

Right away I told Jay about A, er, it but by his reply I knew he was already aware. I'm guessing he was the one who added UPCE in the article. You see, anyone, even a non-Wiki member, can edit Wiki content.

UPCE had an internal link in the UP Diliman entry but when I checked it, the page was empty. With the boost of Jay's prodding, I edited the empty page. Nothing big. I just copied the Org Profile from upce.org and revised it a bit.

So now, we officially have an unofficial entry on Wiki. Made by moi. Haha. You can visit it here and do your share of supplementing if you want.

Congrats, Jazelli and Krisopper

Yay! You passed the interview and are now qualified for admission in the UP College of Law. Wait, is that a good thing with all the hell that law students go through? I suppose not. But just think of it as a preview of the ultimate destination of most lawyers, hell itself. Haha. Still, yay for both of you!

Krisopper, I know you've been praying for this and now you have it. Ditch the legalese and gobbledygook. Dazzle them with Happy English!

Jazelli. Nyahaha! >:) Tell your parents. If you don't, I will. Seriously, I hope you conscientiously consider this opportunity. After doing so and you still want to bum around slash live off your parents money, then treat me to a buffet dinner. May ganyon?! Haha.

Writings on a Narra Bathroom Cubicle Wall

SAYONARA, YUKI

I felt so sad you returned the jacket and keychain I gave you. And the letter inside slapped me like strong wind on mid-April.

I couldn't fight the tears of regret for the lost time. Everything appeared late I have only to console myself with what-could-have-beens. Too bad you're already gone.

I tried calling you at 12 but you left an hour ago-- I was downtrodden. You'd be home by then while I am still nursing a wounded soul.

At least I could have told you to take care. At least we could have parted as friends. I would have told you how much you changed my life. Sana nasabihan man lang kita ng "PAALAM." I hope we find love that we deserve. Thank you for the 2-week joy you gave me.

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.