Torn Down

Back to assisted training after some months of, quote, unquote, self-help. Honestly, I didn't care for it anymore because after my first trainer has gone MIA, I was forced to carry my own weight. (Ha!) Besides, I realized it bites a chunk off my budget. (Actually, yun yun.)

So for weeks I've been putting off the initial join-up with the new trainer, and I have a feeling he didn't take it nicely. Yesterday in our first session it seemed as if he was getting back at me by tearing my lower back into pieces. Tried to beg some weight off, but he didn't relent.

Thanks to him bending forward is impossible. Kanina lang may nahulog akong ten-peso coin sa daan, but I didn't bother to pick it up. (Ganon kalala!)

You know what's weird? I'm actually kinda turned on by the pain. Such perversion, no?

Alessandra

With this heavy feeling on my chest I catch my breath.

I can't believe I'm crying over the matter. It's immature. It's unnecessary. It's very pathetic!

May Taong Apektado at Ito Lang ang Masasabi Niya

Fuck y'all!

Kung Ayaw Mo/Nyo/Nya/Nila

Ok lang. *Plastic smile*

My Boss

Admittedly has high standards. And I hate memo writing.

Ang Kulit Kasi

Sabi nang huwag umasa! Mahirap. :'(

Are You Satisfied?

You were pulling out your hair the day you cut the deal. Chemically calm, were you meant to feel happy that your life was just about to change?

One life pretending to be the cow that got the cream. Everybody said, "You are a dreamer". People like to tell you what you're going to be.

It's not your problem if they don't see what you see. And you do not give a damn if they don't believe. Your problem, it's your problem that you never are happy. It's your problem, it's your problem on how fast you will succeed.

High achiever, don't you see nothing comes for free? They say you're a control freak driven by a greed to succeed. Nobody can stop you.

It's your problem if you want to pack up and run away. It's your business if you feel the need to smoke and drink and sway. It's your problem, it's your problem if you feel the need to hide. It's your problem if you have no friends and feel you want to die.

Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied praying. Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied waiting.

Are you satisfied with an average life? Do you need to lie to make your way in life? Are you satisfied with an easy ride? Once you cross the line will you be satisfied? - The Family Jewels

Thursday Tie Day

WTF?! Looks like tae to me!

May pa-necktie-necktie ka pang nalalaman e di ka nga nag-u-undershirt! What's up with that?

Kairita! (Why am I affected?)

*Toot* Me in the Morning

Robert Pattinson is to star in a flick called Bel Ami. Are they sure they want to go with that title?

Speaking of movie titles, an entry in the recent Chico and Delamar Top 10 Movie Titles Involving a Body Part goes something like, "Naluha ang Mata Ko Nang *Tinoot* Mo Ako".

Ang tanong, ano sa English ang "Kaya kitang *itoot*"?
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Sa araw-araw na lang na ginawa ng diyos for the past two weeks (Taglishera much?) kumakain ako ng 2-pc. Crispy Bangus + extra rice ng Jollibee. Mas malansa na ako sa taong hindi marunong magmahal sa sariling language.

Ivan & Disgrace

It was with much sadness that I watched the final, final episode of my most favorite sitcom whose characters I, as a gay adolescent, had related to so much.

Anong petsa na, ngayon ko lang napanood! I downloaded the complete eighth season. Just tell me if you want a copy. :)
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The final episode of the eighth and final season of the sitcom shows Will and Grace having the biggest fight yet in their twenty-year relationship as Grace, pregnant with her ex-husband Leo's child, decides to remarry him. Will, having ended his friendship with Grace, gets back with his ex-boyfriend Vince to live together and raise a child of their own.

Two years later, with Jack and Karen's help, Will and Grace reconcile. However, too busy raising their own families, they find it hard to have time for each other.

Will and Grace have a falling out that lasts for years. As if by fate, they bump into each other again when their children meet in college (and eventually get married).

I Liked What I Was Doing

And the perks that came along with it. Why did you have to take them away from me? Why did you have to choose just one person? Why was it not me? Now I hear people from the top are quite surprised and not convinced with your decisions.

This is envy talking. You deal with it because I can't.

Meet Koya

Although his looks could pass for a sex offender's (in the picture at least), I guarantee he's not one. Aba, ay kay gwapo namang niyang kriminal kung ganyon. I'd hurl myself to his feet and implore him to treat me like dirt. Kyaa!

It was lunchtime, July 2009 in Cincinnati. In an office cafeteria, I first laid my eyes on him and thought to myself, "Si koya may future," but quickly second-guessed his "preference" after sensing a metrosexual air to him. Sleekly styled coif and tight-fitting clothes. Nonetheless, he was a pleasant sight to behold.

Naku, mahaba-habang kwento at tinatamad na ako. A basta, he's from England and he's here in Manila for a few days. I work indirectly with him kaya we're in speaking in terms. Mabango ang hininga niya at muntik na akong himatayin sa kilig nang minsang bulungan niya ako. Sabi niya, "I'll wait in my hotel room." I hope I still get to see him next week.

Shinpainai

I hope you're exaggerating 'cause you've been worrying me sick. You'll be fine! :'(

The Element of Freedom

"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tightly closed in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom. This is the element of freedom."

Ano daw? After thinking hard (ooh) about it, losing one's virginity was the first thing that came (ooh, another) to mind.

Wikipedia link

(Tam)Back

A place in time still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories Lolit Solis, ah ho
Never too far away...

As soon as the night ends, I wish time will loop back to the 24th of December when care was put aside and food, stuffed inside. As much as I want to see my office mates again-- on second thought, it's not that much. I dread laying my eyes on that "Unread Mail" folder, text in bold, especially the two-, three-digit (God forbid) count beside it. Why aren't people considerate enough to stop sending work email during holidays?

It's early into the year and I'm already complaining so much. Hay, leche!

The Bitter Aftertaste of 2009

Will not be washed down with alcohol for the grudge I hold is an intoxicant far more potent. Let the spite persist and be the engine to consume my being, the very fuel that will drive itself forward... into 2010, with less lame imagery hopefully.

Nanggigigil ako sa galit! Masama sa puso, shet. Bibili na lang ako ng kapa kahit redundant. Simple yet arrogant.

Givenchy

Just a Day

Just an ordinary day...