Because I'm Not Ready to Let Go Just Yet

Jazella, come on, sing it with me!

Arigatou iwanaiyo
Zutto shimatte oku
Sayonara wa kagerinai
Yume no ato shizuka ni oritatsu

Ryouteni ha furisosogu kakera wo
Itsumademo itsumademo daite
Saiko made waratteru tsuyosa wo
Mou shitteita...

"Last Regrets" by Ayana, ending theme to "Kanon" the game and the anime series.
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I won't say "Thank you," I'll always keep it inside. Goodbyes aren't gloomy. After a dream, I will quietly step off.

The fragments that rain into my hands, I will always hold close. The strength to be smiling until the end; that, I have already known...

The End of a Dream, the End of Kanon

Dreaming... I'm dreaming... A dream I have every day... A dream with no end... Red snow... A world stained red... Against the sunset sky... A small child was crying. I wanted to at least wipe away the tears he shed. But my arms wouldn't move... The tears streaming down his cheeks... disappeared into the snow. I could only watch... In vain... In sorrow... It'll be fine. So... don't cry. I promise. I wonder who those words belonged to. The dream fades to a different color... Yeah, it's a promise.

Tears.

For More Conflict

First and foremost, I would like to greet my blog a belated Happy 1st Birthday. As I mentioned to Alpha how the anniversary slipped off my memory despite my having anticipated it a couple of weeks before it, she asked me whether my blog had a name. Since it had none, right then and there I christened it "Ivantot". No-brainer, not to mention trivial, but whatever. Anyway, here's my very first post one year, one week ago.
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One week after publishing here my very first post was "Vallots and Baxes". One year later, which was last night, I again volunteered to staff the BAC Comelec. Did pretty much the same things, although this time I squeezed "nano naps" in between strokes of vote tallies as I just wanted to flee the canvassing and sleep. I'm not one to complain though, especially what with the free food. How cheap, noh?

I remember making a promise that this year I would have been part of the Comelec for CE. Well, I hold no control nor enough influence over that. Virge says I am one of the "most partisan" people he knows and I beg to disagree. If the situation calls for it, I can act impartial(ly). Anyway, I believe the only way for one to be completely impartial is to be dead. So death to you, Virgilio. I kid.
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The politics of CE elections have been a cause of stress (and, in serious cases, of comlpete obliteration of friendships) for any person closely involved in the organization and with the candidates, of course. For now all I can say is "Diyos ko po, have mercy on us (us being the candidate I'm rooting for, me and her supporters)!"

A Song for You for Him

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
I'm not over you yet
And I don't think I care
And I don't want to be [just] your friend...

Nyahaha! >:P

O, What a Waste!

"Yesterday, on March 2nd, I, Utada Hikaru, and Kiriya Kazuaki, officially divorced."

Sadness. This news struck me more than Jung Da Bin's suicide did.

Can't I Just Sleep Forever?

Got sick from last, last night's stress. A slight fever I'm willing to handle, but stress, never again. Not if I can help it. In the case that I apply (for the nth time) for next sem's CE officership (That's an "if", if I may emphasize. As of now, I'm resolved to making my life less complicated), I'm definitely avoiding the ad hoc committee positions. At least, under a core committee an officer is secured a budget for his project.

Anyway, as much as I want to go home in Pampanga right now, I can't because I just may worsen my present condition. Plus, the MMDA is fixing something somewhere in Cubao, Norman said, that's why traffic's as slow as hell.

By the way, he's staying overnight in the condo. For dinner, we originally intended to eat at KFC and changed plans when we saw there were a lot of people there, so off we went to Rustan's blah blah blah... I ended up being Norman's maid. I cooked packed, marinated chicken and, and, and that was it.

Starbucks' expresso brownies is love. Bittersweet. Bitter for the most part. Joke lang. Anyway, obvious bang bored ako?

Deny to Death

While leeching "Flavor Of Life" and "Konna ni Chikaku de..." at 100 kbps average.

Maggot: Ifrico, nagda-download ka?
Moi: Hindi.

:P

Elevate 2007

Watched Elevate at the UP Theater tonight with my buddy. It's a milestone for both of us (Don't you think so, Charree?) On top of that, we exchanged not text messages nor the usual, awkward, shy smiles but words, actual spoken words. Haha.

And he should have never set foot on stage. What an eyesore! Terrible! (Hmm.)

Not Charming at All

Poke me again with your finger, and with my very own teeth, I'll sever it off your hand. I'm serious. Rabied, too.

I've Been Waiting for This

Suneohair

Artist: Suneohair
Title: Skirt

Album art

Tracklist:
1. Skirt (5:15) [transliteration]
2. Split (3:56) [transliteration] ~ Ending theme to "Honey and Clover II"
3. kagefumi (3:39)
4. Solution (4:07)
5. Minute heat (2:57) [translation]
6. Terminal (5:08) [transliteration]
7. It is easy, you say, it is (5:55) [translation]
8. headphone music (5:14)
9. I don't know (4:55)
10. Green rainbow (3:22) [translation]
11. SEASON (5:08)
12. Sun (5:31) [translation]

"Eru Desu."

Eru: kamusta?
Ai: ok lang
Ai: ikaw?
Eru: ok lang din naman
Eru: sobrang nagbago na talaga noh? sorry for the last conversation/bangayan in ym[...]
Ai: yuh, okay lang yun
Ai: mas maganda na siguro yung ganito
Ai: may distansya
Eru: yep, so that i can't have the chance to push you away again. gusto lang kitang kamustahin :)

Konna ni Chikaku de...

That night I realized how painful love could be with you so close to me and also because I know you better than anyone else. Every time you offer me your kind support my heart starts to tighten.

Like this, like this, I gaze at you from so close. Why, why are we only friends? No matter how, how strong my feelings are I just can’t tell them to you. You don’t understand it, I’m so in love with you.

When I’m with you, I always seem so healthy, but I’m always hiding my tears and my sleepless nights. I ain’t feeling good. I’m starting to lie to you, the person I talk about more.

That’s why every day, every day, I feel so much pain. How many, how many more sleepless nights will I have to pass through? If only I could go back to the first, the first day that we met. I’m so in love with you.

If I don’t end up showing all my love with two more smiles, certainly I won’t be able to leave this hopeless sadness, but I just can’t reveal in my smile all my love, and we continue to be just friends.

Actually, actually, I like you since a long time ago. Always, always I will keep loving you. You, you, this feeling that can’t reach you already reached the blue skies. I’m so in love with you.

Like this, like this, I gaze at you from so close. Why, why are we only friends? No matter how, how strong my feelings are I just can’t tell them to you. You don’t understand it, I’m so in love with you.

CHE.R.RY

Yeng YUI


Grimace YUI again

My palm trembled, and that was turning into a small courage. I'd always disliked emoji (emoticons), but I got excited if they were from you.

It’s no good if I reply too soon. I heard that from someone before, but I can’t do these strategy things. I like you.

I’ve fallen in love. Probably, you don’t realize it, right? Putting a wish into the starry night, CHE.R.RY., with my fingertips, I send a message towards you.

The sakura are blossoming. The entire scenery that can be viewed from this room now, I’d rather exchange it for the world you felt for ten seconds.

I don’t mind even if it’s just one line. I want words from you. I can even keep on believing lies because I like you.

The fruits that grow sweet are good. I want to grow them from casual conversation.

The start of love, my heart contracts with a clench. No matter how long, I’ll be waiting the message I entrust to the cold night wind of spring.

Spamiolo

Sam: I want to be complete... Pah-puh Piolo.

Such a cute couple, don't you think? Winner silang pareho! Haha.

Yay to shounen-ai! I hope they push it further, take it to the next level. The yaoi level, that is. I want to see some action, a flipflop maybe. Let's go for versatility. Haha. (It's free to dream, ano ba!)

Be Sensitive

Stop mentioning *bleep* in your conversations especially when I'm around eavesdropping. It's rude.

Marumi Ka

And you know that. If you fail to realize it, take the hint. Do something about it will you because it's very unbecoming. Mukha ka pa namang malinis. Clean up your act-- literally.

Oo, Ipinagduduldulan Kong Matalino Ako. Bakit Ba?

Out of sheer boredom, I took a free IQ test from this site. Despite having been stressed and depressed, I still managed to score highly. Whee! It's such a pleasant surprise... Who the fart am I fooling? I always convince myself that I indeed am intelligent. And what does my having superior IQ signify? Nothing. Pakonswelo lang. (High EQ tramps high IQ, moron!)